2019 New Year's Resolutions

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My favorite holiday is New Year’s. Not Christmas, not Thanksgiving, not Easter, New Year’s. I love saying goodbye to an old year with its triumphs and failures and embracing a new year filled with changes and new beginnings. I love watching the ball drop in Times Square and hearing Auld Lang Syne and while most people don’t feel any different come 12:00:01 on January 1st, I have always felt something deep down change. As if last year’s self departed my body and a new one settles in. But this year, as I sat on the couch and watched the same ball drop and heard the same song sung I felt nothing. I am someone who thrives on change and when that feeling never came, like it always had in the past, I felt unsettled and almost helpless. 2018 was a rough year for me personally and can only be described as feeling stuck. Nothing seemed to move forward. It was the first time I’ve ever felt a year of my life had been a waste. It’s only been 9 hours and 40 minutes into the new year, so it’s probably too soon to tell if 2019 is going to be the year that renews my spirit again, but one thing I know is that I’m so glad I don’t have to relive 2018.

I’m usually all for New Years resolutions (even if I don’t keep any) because it makes the new year something to look forward to, but this year I’m just not feeling any resolutions. 2019 already has the big pressure of hopefully being the year I start moving forward again, so I don’t feel the need to make it even more stressed out. So my only resolution, like all years, is reading.

Read 30 Books

Last year was 12 and I doubled that, so this year I’m giving myself 30, ten of which need to be classic novels. Books are not only good for the brain but for me personally they are good for my soul. (And from the depressing opening of this blogpost, my soul clearly needs it!) Whenever I got lonely while Brett was away for work last year, diving into a new book helped tremendously. There is something about a book that a TV show just can’t give you. I already have eight books on my nightstand, so I better get to reading! P.S. Look forward to my monthly book reviews this year!

What are your new year’s resolutions or do you abstain from the tradition all together?